Indulgence.

Home is where the heart is.

2011-03-05T09:02:00.000-08:00

Don't you agree, when they all say, home is where the heart is?
but do you see, with every step that you take, you get further away, from where the heart is?
it's so easy, to be blinded, and caught up in the clouds where everything's in a haze,
causing you to forget about the days, of the common simple beautiful ways :)

Pearl hii, i'll be here when you come back.

is back on track.

2011-03-02T22:42:00.001-08:00

lets skip the whole 4 or 5 months of not blogging!

so what did you miss... well for starters, I'm finally a senior in SAS and i got elected as house captain for Cornwall and let me tell you that being someone on the top, is hard work. i swear down, if i get picked for some managing thing..... never again. I'd rather people tell me what to do HAHA. nah, but i guess it's alright being the captain, it's just so stressy all the time, especially when people don't want to do whatever i assigned them to do, then I'd have to find a loophole on how to work this whole sports day out, but all in all, i kinda like being in charge :)

ANYHOW, i stayed up all night watching grey's anatomy yesterday, well till 5AM but still! it was dawn o:) It just never occurred to me how lifeless surgeons are, i mean, if surgeons are ACTUALLY like that in real life. HAHAHA. Meredith's quotes got me over the moon, there's just something about how she says everything that makes you think over and assess everything that you've gone through, her character's quite the catch.

My sister and I started singing again. HAHAHAH well SHE has. she cant shut up. i can't get her to. it's painful :p joking.. will promise to upload ONE decent video of us singing a cover of something without any disruptions. cause of all the covers that we did, its either she cracks up, or i do, or keeley comes meow-ing her through the duvet.

why the sudden fix of blog and long posts? well because since PEARL HII is writing her shit on Posterous, i decided to give her recent updates on my blog when i can't contact her, (and because my sister recently made me feel jealous of her awesome skin, visit her blog: aufa) AND also, i realized i've became so dependent on my friends, which is a bad thing. having them to see me everyday is a burden for them, let alone telling them all my shit. So i'll just seal away in this blog :D

March started off with 1'st assessments, which is such a kill-joy because my sister's 20th is on 5th of march but at least that's the plus side, because 5th is when 1st assessments is OVAAAA. next week is when hell will start though :( with heats for 2 days, and netball tournament, and then BGIC, which reminds me, i haven't done squat for my OS. hoping i'd finish it tomorrow with pat. but that's kinda impossible since i haven't done my research~ ah well. i'll survive.

that's all for now i guess~

i feel great. superb. awesome. amazing. fantastic.

2010-08-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

good things come to those who wait.

i totally, agree. i waited. and now, im gonna take this risk.

BULLLLL.

2010-08-16T22:41:00.000-07:00

go to my sister's blog, and read her latest post called "living life to the fullest...say what?"
genius.

the phrase itself is horrible. you do not live life to the fullest, by that you're saying you wanna try everything before you leave this earth!

i am glad my sister showed me this small little light ♥

ANYWAYS, to ka aufa, i totally understand what you mean by "love grows in absence"
can't fast today.. :) women problems! hahaha.

hehehehehehehhe

fool :)

2010-06-19T12:32:00.001-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE :D yes i have returned.... hehehe. i shall try to make it a habit to blog. anyways, i have a lot to tell! :)

went to empire's on wednesday, slept over. had a really great time with tikah jos pearl fadli baewei joey karen yasy *sorry if i missed anyone out :)* not all of them slept over! haha chuan yi came late, then fadli went home, then baewei went home, then karen went home, then joey went home then pearl went home.... HAHAHAHAH so alls left is me tikah jos and chuan yi :) we watched A-Team! FOOL! :D HAHAHA then played pictionary, it was great and awesome!!! we should so totally do it again :)

hehehehehehe anyways.. i'll continue this later in a new blogpost. since its fathers day, my dad instructed me to wash his car. -.- BYE

hi.

2010-06-12T14:57:00.000-07:00

i am karate kid.

i do kung fu.

and i am kung fu panda. :)

you guys know that..... i am awesome.

just you and me.

2010-04-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

OHMYGOD. i love my blog now, so i shall update :) HEHE!

HELLO FRIENDS AND FELLOW READERS/BLOGWALKERS/BLOGGERS!

i love you people! anyways, i shall update all of ya'll on the things i have done since i last blogged!
well, netball. we lost. well the seniors, junior won the first 30 minutes. it was juniors first, then the next day seniors. so since junior won, they have another round. we played against chung hwa. oh god, so many tears!!! haha tikah. dayum. but yes, we were winners inside <3 before all the senior tournament started, coach arranged a meeting for all the netballers, in the conference hall. and after the meeting was done. coach pulled me aside and said "there's only one thing i want from you" then i replied "haha, yeah to shoot" coach said "no." then i said, "then? what?". coach said with a big genuine smile on her face "i want you, to have fun :)" and gave me a big hug. i was really shocked she did that. made me feel so much better. shes like a healthy sporty supportive mom i've never had. haha. but yes, it wasnt long till i let her advice get to me. when we first started i shot the first goal. then esther. then me again. i thought, "dayum, we have to have this!" then chung hwa, scored. and scored. and scored and scored. to be honest, when they shot the first goal, i got really scared and couldnt play properly. i kept replaying what coach said to me. but i couldnt concentrate with my opponent stepping on my leg all the time. so we lost, but fear not. we are the winners. :)

THERES ALWAYS NEXT YEAR :D

i miss netball. that's exactly why i joined basketball. to keep me occupied. and not lazying around my house every afternoon. but gosh! basketball is just sooooo TIRING. we had a tournament against ISB. but dude, we couldnt even get a shot. they were just so damn tall. my position is center. -.- fucking hell.

i guess that's it. i dont feel like talking about school/friends. its just ... ugh. i miss 3R, but *please, im just being honest* 4CS, is ... better. i found people i can't replace in CS, well in the time being of course. haha. and though we get stereotyped as the worst class to be taught in or just the worst class, i dont fucking care. because i love this class, made new friends, and i can relate to all the people here, academically. i dont feel dumb. which is awesome.
sorry, i shouldnt show how i feel here. i just feel divided. the division.

ARENT YOU HAPPY I UPDATED MISS UMI ATUL BAZZIELAH? :P

I LALALALOVE YOU.

hello.

2010-04-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

i shall update you people :) HAHAHAH

HELLOOOOO

my blog, is under construction.. again. i will never be happy with my skin. HAHAHAH
so just wait. if you are even waiting.

NAH UMI ALLEY, UNTUK KAU :P HAHAHAHAHA LOVE YOU.

ilove4CS ♥

2010-03-06T08:07:00.000-08:00

:) that. says. it. all~

(:

2010-01-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

got this from adele chin's blog :) decided to do it to kill time. since i got a lot of time -.-

What's the first thing you do when waking up in the morning?
♥ take the towel. and go to the showers.

Do you prefer a shower or bath?
♥ showers man, i have this scary things for baths. :/

How many times a day do you brush your teeth?
♥ depending on how many times i eat. which is around 2 or 3.

What kind of cell phone do you have?
♥ LG cookie.

What would you do with your significant other if you knew today was your last day with them?
♥ go waste all my money (:

Have you said "I love you" today?
♥ yes (: to mom and dad. and keeley.

What's one thing you actually remember about kindergarten?
♥ hmm, oh there was this one time where i cut my friends eyelashes, and then ended up cutting her flesh... evil child i was.

Did you cry at your graduation or smile because you were glad it was over?
♥ i havent had graduation (: but i'd cry. HAHA

Are you closer with your mum or dad?
♥ closer with my dad 8)

What's 2 of your favorite movies?
♥ all the sappy love stories that makes you shed a tear.

What's the last thing you think about before going to sleep at night?
♥ how to get closer (;

Does your life seem to revolve around drama?
♥ not ALL the time.

What's a nickname you go by?
♥ rir. rah. riro. (:

How do you calm down when your extremely angry?
♥ lock myself in the room, or call the person who will extremely calm me down (; haha.

What are 3 places you want to see in the world?
♥ Vegas, Paris, New York

A movie or a long walk in the park on the first date?
♥ long walk (: just so we could talk more.

What are 3 of the first things you notice about the opposite sex?
♥ personality, humor and the way his eyes looks at you. he has to struck my fancy (;

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
♥ hmm, thats hard. i dont really talk about the future. probably getting a degree in music. and also probably will be in a serious relationship. HAHAHA

In 10?
♥ married, with a baby on the way (: weeee thats like 25 years old.

Do long distance relationships actually work out?
♥ honestly, for me, no. but that's just me. for those people who stands long distance relationships, i salute you. its just so hard.

What are 2 of your favorite places to eat?
♥ home. and swensens :)

3 of your favorite places to shop?
♥ in brunei? oh god, whatever i think is cute i buy, i dont have any specific places to shop :p

Which would you prefer...be rich and miserable, or poor and extremely happy?
♥ poor and extremely happy. without happiness, you would want anything else in your life. learn it. live it. love it.

What's one of your favorite TV shows?
♥ How I Met Your Mother. GLEEEEEEE. Gossip Girl. (: but i dont watch it on tv, i watch it online (;

What's your favorite perfume or cologne for the opposite sex?
♥ OMG. LYNX! BOM CHICKA WAU WAUUU! oh and Nike and and Adidas. any hot sexy perfume (; hahahaha. or spray. whichever way, it just has to smell nice.

Do you know who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
♥ ... obviously spongebob HAHA.

How many showers do you take in one day?
♥ twice a day (:

Would you want a house at the beach or in the mountains?
♥ beach man~ i'd be a lot closer to the waves.

Which would you rather have...a huge walk-in shower or a jacuzzi bath tub big enough for two?
♥ i dont like jacuzzi's or baths or swimming pools or anything like that. im afraid i'd drown or imagine theres something down there... so huge walk in shower :)

What are 2 of your favorite colors?
♥ greeen and and red (:

Do you look up or at your feet when you walk?
♥ i look up. to see where im passing through. haha

What's your favorite ice cream?
♥ vanilla, though its bland. i like the weird taste.

Do you like Starbucks...or are they just overpriced?
♥ like starbucks? LOVE IT. no no no, its totally worth it. but in KK they taste so weird :( i miss UK's.

Are you a prep or a jeans-and-t-shirt type of person?
♥ define prep? :p haha, i definately wear jeans, but not t-shirts, i mean i do. but i prefer blouses. (:

What color are your eyes?
♥ dark brown, light brown under sunlight :)

Do you have glasses or contacts?
♥ i have colored contacts, but no degree. hehe

Which do you want...a big extravagant wedding or a quiet intimate ceremony?
♥ quiet intimate ceremony, but with my culture, that wont ever. ever happen. hahah

What's the most expensive thing you own?
♥ my laptop. my money. :( its rosak atm.

What's the most you've ever spent on a pair of jeans?
♥ 40 pounds, which is. at that time, 120 dollars.

What colour are your bedroom walls?
♥ green :)

Do you ever actually make your bed?
♥ of course.

How many pillows do you have to sleep with?
♥ ... counting* basically, a lot.

Do you prefer to sleep alone or with someone?
♥ with someone man. can never sleep alone, i can only sleep alone when i dont think about shits. ... which is never. HAHAH

What could you tolerate...someone who snores or a sleep walker?
♥ someone who snores man!

Are the shows on MTV too fake?
♥ the shows on MTV are so-so. but the shows on E! yes :) but its addictive. like keeping up with the kardashians, its a must watch. playboy bunnies are funny :)

Do you have to have some kind of noise to fall asleep?
♥ i can sleep to anything....

What time is it right now?
♥ 4: 34 am :)

What's your zodiac sign?
♥ Virgo.

How long does it usually take you to get dressed?
♥ to go out: 30 mins. to go to school: 30 mins, with shower and without shower:15 minutes. i can be a total mess in the morning.. haha

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
♥ honestly, text. if call, its pointless if you dont have anything to say. but if its a person you're close to then thats fine :)

Who is your celebrity heart-throb?
♥ a lot. a lot from gLee :)

What do you think the world will be like in 30 years?
♥ Disastrous.

Do you save your money or spend it when you get your hands on it?
♥ spend it.. never trust me to save my allowance...

Are you a happy person?
♥ YES :D sometimes, if im on my good side. hehe.

If money was no option, what type car would you own?
♥ what naz has, i want >:] MUAHAHAH.

What are 3 set radio stations in your vehicle right now?
♥ err, on my moms car?

Do good songs"wear-out" by over playing them?
♥ not to me :)

Have you ever flat ironed your hair?
♥ yes. it made me look round-er.

What have you done that you are not proud of?
♥ i really dont wanna go there (:

Do you go to church?
♥ no, im a muslim thank you very much.

Do you like water parks?
♥ yes (Y)

What do you normally eat for breakfast?
♥ serial. HAHAHAHHA get it? SERIAL:CEREAL! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA wth.

Do you like to cuddle?
♥ (;

Do you like the heat or cold weather?
♥ cold. cold all the way. :(

What was your favorite cartoon as a kid?
♥ i loved disney. i loved ariel :) haha. i loveedd mermaids.

Do you prefer dogs or cats?
♥ cats. they're less .... barkey? cats are awesome. its just unbelievable. hahaha

What's the best movie you've seen recently?
♥ Avatar :) haha

Do you prefer scary movies or comedies?
♥ comedies. is this even a question!?

Ever had a huge crush on someone and never tell them?
♥ yes. up till now.

Did your high school have the clicks like Mean Girls?
♥ yeah, well not in brunei of course. i was cady, i got a taste of what it was like to be in the "it" group. hahaha to be honest, the whole thing is stupid. kids i tell you. kids.

Are you a bashful or outgoing person?
♥ outgoing :) i love going out.

If you could change one thing about your body...would you?
♥ yes. hell yes. get rid of these fats. they're annoying me.

If someone held a gun to your head and asked you "Do you believe in God?" what would you say?
♥ i'd say, i believe in Allah :)

Would you drive 1000 miles for the one you love?
♥ im one of those people who give 30 percent and expect 70 percent back. once they pass that, i would literally do anything for them o.o

What was one thing you were given as a child and still have?
♥ snuggles. :) since i was 4.

Do you have a favorite shirt or pair of jeans you wear over and over?
♥ yes. HAHAHHAHA

Will you move away from your hometown any time soon?
♥ im open to possibilities, even if i did, i wouldnt be suprised, its the story of my life, moving here and there.

Would you actually relocate for the one you can't live without?
♥ HAHAHA (:

How many texts do you send on average a month?
♥ fuck load.

What's your favorite name for a girl and boy?
♥ i haven't thought about it yet. (:

Have you ever had a pen pal?
♥ nope..

What are you about to do now that this survey is over?
♥ wake my sister up.

love.

2010-01-15T22:14:00.000-08:00

i cant get over the fact that i have to write what class im in on my books. i mean, i dont write F3R anymore, i write F4CS.

it hurts. really. i miss it dearly. i dont show it, i act like im having the time of my life in CS. and i am, but there's still that little voice that points out that where i am is not 3R and it leaves an empty space.

im a little bit late on this, but HAPPY NEW YEAR. (: this year started out very sad for me, i wasn't in brunei, and i wasn't with my family. but it was all great.

and im very late on reflecting my past year. so here goes:

16th April 2008, landed in brunei. scared shitless to see where im going to school.
3 months after all the hecticness of finding me a school. i finally decided to go to my alternative school, it was a deal, if i didnt get into JIS, i had no where to go but SAS.
1st July 2008: came to school at 5:30. thought to myself, oh shit where the hell do i go? then i just went to the main office and went to see ms rose or something. so yeah, i went to the main office then ended up at the staff room, where i met miss lorene (: miss lorene told me that everything will be fine, and told mrs shafee to bring me to 2R.
mrs shafee and i had like a little chat, asked me about where i was from then little did i know, we were outside the door, she went in, i followed. i was standing right next to the door while looking at everyone. Blankly. i thought to myself, this. this is a classroom? ITS HOT.

from that day on, i still havent changed my mind about the classroom, hahah. but i changed my mind about everyone. everything.
i changed, i started to since 1st of July. not because of its like a new place new school crap, its the people i started to hang out with, they're so different. i changed for the better.

3R 2009. this. this is the most awesome-est year of my whole fucking life. the ups and downs. i wouldnt feel complete if i didnt type this down. basically, it was the year where i grew so much more closer to EVERYONE. EVERYONE. literally, it was the year full of awesome tuition laughters, awesome mental jokes, awesome dirty jokes, awesome trademarks, awesome loves, awesome tears. it was a full package. everything was just so perfect. it was the year where we all bonded, together. 3R, was not only our classmates. it's our Family. everyones so cool with everyones actions and everything. we dont judge, we dont have beef with anyone. it was just the meaning of a perfectly dysfunctional class, no, not literally. HAHAHAH i wouldnt say everything was perfect, the downs will be forgotten though.

those 16 months of being in SAS, was fun. We all had awesome fun. that's all that mattered.
Tudong Gang. without any of you guys, i wouldnt be who i am today. oh and kayrenn kuang ;)

Nazeeeeemmmaahh. you're still the bespren. for whatever happend and whatever will happen, you changed me. its like you fixed my brain (;
Tikah. i feel like i should apologise, im sorry, for whatever happend. i love you dearly despite what awkwardness we've been through, i still love you. for whatever happend. you're awesome.
Baz. I LOVE YOU you're fucking great yknow, you're my net. when i had no one. that sounds selfish, but i know you'd feel honoured :p no words can everr describe what/who you are. (; THAT awesome love.
Jos. (; you. we've gone closer towards the end, and it was no regret. you're one of the people that left you're footprint on my heart.

all of you guys are the permanent footprint thats on my heart.

i will never forget you guys, i will never forget 3R, this experiance is just unforgettable. oh god, i should stop. tears. talking about it here, makes me want it all back so much.

anyways, a little update on being in 4CS. things started off great, i was absent on the first day. hahaha it was funny, but nevermind. i have a feeling that it'll be a great year though (: will update soon again.

2010-01-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUICY (; (BAZILAH SUHAILI)

I LOVE YOU. x

nothing much.

2009-12-05T00:25:00.000-08:00

THIS BLOG, WILL BE FIXED. ITS UNDER CONSTRUCTION ;)

i haven't had any time to update. i have a lot of things to update on, but dont know where to start, things are so complicated. with myself, i feel so out of place. oh what the hell. im at kopi kacang :) banyak orang. haha

anyways, i've been listening to mozella a lot lately :D i think shes awesome. oh did i mention? im joining this singing talent show in brunei, P2F = passport to fame. that should be the highlight of my updates. since like my life is dull. i miss school. i miss my awesome tudong gang and friends. i miss yassamin zainal!!!!! ): shes having fun in australia! hope she didnt forget my nerds ;p hahaha. i miss jos, STRANGELY, and i hope she doesnt forget my COKLAT! :P HAHAHAHAHAH. but yeah, i miss all of that. i miss complaining of how i want school to be over, funny, now i want it to start! HAHAH.

OHMYGOD, baz is totally obsessed with GLEE. HAHAH, she can go alllllll day about them! :D so crazyyyyyyy. hahah i'll be all like "uhh, yeah baz. hahaha". anywhoooo, more about the P2F thing, i really hope i can join in, it would be an awesome experiance, i would be the youngest but the biggest :p hahahah!

for me, its not all about the prize and shit, i just want to fall in love with singing again, i love it. i mean singing. :D currently, its my biggest passion. and i think it'll be like that for a long time. i want that experiance. P2F is kinda a big thing for my family, i mean my cousins and all. since my first cousin "Dila" joined in last year and got third place and my other cousin "Zul F" won the first season of P2F. they really do incourage me in doing this.

coffee bean. oh dayum, i miss starbucks. ):

PMB. RESULTS. those two words, are like lingering in my mind. just going round and round. it annoys me that my dad is all scaring the crap out of me by telling me that he registered for the SMS thingy to find out about my results. >:[

i miss the-ex-bespren. i mean yeah we fixed our little patch up :) which is a relief. but somehow i dont feel right, i feel like i got used to her not being around, and when she is, it feels weird. its like i have to think when i talk to her, i just dont wanna say something stupid, and trust me, dulu i never think of what i want to say to her, she was like my own personal rock who just listens to what i want to say, and im like her personal rock too who listens to her, but sometimes i get caught up in my own shit that i forget about her's, but i guess i dont look at it that way anymore, i can hardly call her mybespren, before we had that patch, i just toss out fucked up shit to her. haha, i just went up to her and told her about me wanting to be a mouse. -.- and ... other stuff. HAHAHAH. im talking about this here cause im such a sissy. i have absolutely no one to talk to. except for this one person, he makes me feel sane. but most of the time he makes me go INsane. i guess thats what i need sometimes, i drive people crazy, so i guess its fine if he gives me a taste of my own medicine. asswipe :p

i deeply apologise if this offends you, i just dont have the balls to talk to you like last time lagi, i am such a sissy. but you should know, no matter what the fuck happens, i love you, you were more than just a bestfriend to me, you were almost like a sister and to me even though my mind gets so fucked sometimes , i salute you for being so patient with me, i respect you for that.

i shouldnt get in touch with my emo side.
x

♥

2009-10-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

im blogging, in tumblr and blogger :D HAHAHAHHA hey, catch me in tumblr and twitter. for tumblr. and for twitter :) Awesome. HAHAH i dont get why i need to make all these, i just did and its like wooosh.

i dont really have much to update on :) im happy like i have never been. i appreciate my peeps :) rather than complaining and picking on them. i realised i love my body, though i know i need to lose weight, i just need that inner confidence that, well, that WE'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL :) serious shit. hahah.

i feel so outdated with my blogs and tumblrs and twitters. HAHAHAH. its interesting to try to keep up with everything :)

anyways, i wanna wish shin lin a happy advanced birthday :) youre great womann. haha *HUGS TIGHTLY* :D xxx i'll be there btw ;)

well i gotta go :) bye people.

with or without you

2009-09-22T18:15:00.000-07:00

priorities. my priorities are straight. (:

♥

2009-09-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

♥ SELAMAT HARIRAHYA PEOPLE

and

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY TAN (Y) i love you. xxxx

love and war. its both the same.

2009-09-17T01:23:00.001-07:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE (: PMB PMB PMB. let it be. im bored. LETS GO PARTAY AFTER PMB.

♥ would you stay just a little my love?

2009-09-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

thank you all who made my day (:

today, im 15. and today, i cant be fucked to care what people think. HAHAH ♥ oh well. i asked baz to sing me happy birthday, i asked. ISNT THAT POLITE? ): hahah shut upp yeah. its how we do it in uk okay! but im not there (: haha i remember last last year. goddamn man haha. i remember last year too. (: i remember it perfectly. well im 15, and all's i gotta do now is study, cause i wanna see my friends next year. (: i wanna see juicy ;) HAHAH wth. so i'll be very very veryy m.i.a ): haha so yeahh..

♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RIRAH SUULLIIIAAA! hoorahh..

im 15 (: i still feel the same.

2009-09-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

15! (: thanks for everyone who greeted me. very much appreciated! (Y) i love you all. i'll blog some more tomorow. but yeah (: hehe. SLEEP WELL GUYS. CAUSE IM DAYUMMM SLEEPEH.

let you be the first. to make the deep bruise.

2009-09-08T07:11:00.000-07:00

birthday's in 2 days.

my birthday and i can tell already that it's gonna suck. you wont probably read this marzuqi, but if you do, its gonna suck because you wont be there with me and i wont be happy with you and things wont be right on that particular day.

anyways, 15 years old. i feel the same. last year was funny though, i remember my birthday clearly. (: i dont wanna go down memory lane, cause its just a waste now. well not everything of course, i'll cherish it ♥

♥ why do you do this to me? why do you do this so easily, you make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe, so why do you do this to me.

is this how its supposed to be?

2009-09-08T07:05:00.000-07:00

refresh. start over. introduce

so im refreshing my life, starting over a new leaf. and hey im rirah sulia.

how i wish it could be that easy. maybe a break is what we need. just let it be, i feel so alone, i cant breathe cant talk. but most of all i feel so hurt. yeah thats it. you didnt tell me..

you hurt me man. one thing i told you not to do.

0.0

2009-09-08T04:36:00.000-07:00

changed my skin. and no, i did not pick this skin because there's taylor swift's face in it. hahah its cause i like yellow (Y) and black. hehe!

im confused about something. do you love me? is there a chance that there might be traces of her, that you carry, under the surface.

apology.

2009-09-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

dear friend, please do forgive me.

forgive me for what i said and what i did. i didnt mean any harm. i didnt mean anything. so i just want to apologise of how i have been acting recently. and i hope you understand why. i miss you, because i was too dependent on you. and i dont blame you to drop the heavy baggage i asked you to carry for me. i hope you know that i didnt mean to ask you to carry, all i needed was a friend to pour everything out to. every single detail. everyday. you gotta admit, its hard adjusting to not having you there. its just hard. so yeah. forgive me, for everything that i asked you to carry. i wont try to utter these words to your face, because well the last thing you need is drama face to face, so let it be. if you confront me, i'd tell you. i wont try to cut everything loose, but i'll just try and adjust to how situations are now. thanks for being there dulu. i told you you'd get sick of me. thanks friend, for making my journey so much more interesting. (:

i love you friend.

i have to stop blogging

2009-09-02T05:33:00.000-07:00

i dont really have much to say.. but i still wanna blog. which is weirdd... anyways, today the last paperr for mocks. yay.. horray. lala.. today is very shit. yesterday was shittier.

i love amos lee.
yesterday i got lost in circles
feeling like such a mess
now im down just hanging on the corner
i cant help but to reminisce

cause when your gone
colours seems to fade.

you dont know me. so dont try to. life is full of complications. some people get hit with the lucky one, somepeople get bad luck. im one of the people that gets bad luck.
i really dont get it. do you want me to go?

screwed.

2009-09-01T06:20:00.000-07:00

My New Best Friend

today i met a great new friend
who knew me right away
it was funny how she understood
all i had to say

she listened to my problems
she listened to my dreams
we talked about love and life
she'd been there, too , it seems

i never once felt judged by her
she knew just how i felt
she seemed to just accept me
and all the problems i'd been dealt

she didnt interrupt me
or need to have her say
she just listened very patiently
and didnt go away

i wanted her to understand
how much this meant to me
but as i went to heug her
something startled me

i put my arms in front of me
and went to pull her nearer
and i realised that my new bestfriend
was nothing but a mirror

♥

life.

2009-08-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

i never thought moving was so hard.

i moved. i mean, house of course. haha i wouldnt be blogging if i were out of the country. :D lalala. i moved houses, from my aunts to a rented one... for the time being of course (: life has been kind. and great. im thankful. esp this month its puasaaa (: happy fasting people!. blogging right now, because well i feel like it. today was okay, i guess. cant swear. and dad, please stop reading my blog. if not i will privatise it. serious bah. BANAR WAH! GET AWAY FROM MY BLOG. i will tell you later when we have dinner :D HAHAH!

we have a kitty (: im calling it kitty, my sister calls it keeley. HAHAH its so cuteeeee. school. not much to update, mocks are here. so i will be on hiatus....again. i dont really blog much (: hahah

lastly, JOS happy belated, since i didnt wish you on the blog, and wished naz instead, i thought that was ): so yeah sorry lovely.. (: i love you. hahaha more than ;P HAHAH we shall keep this prenship on. wth! HAHAH

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!! :D

happy onemonthsary and how many days you weirdass (: i do count! and you dont know my blog, but i know you'll find out soon. HAHAH. you are blind. dont deny it, i already proved it! you called me pretty several times. so YOU'RE BLIND! (: hehe. xx zuqqqsss.

~~~ something from the heart ~~~

am i out of line?

could i be this girl you think is perfect?

can i ask, are you blind?

to think that i am really worth it?

i gotta say, you've got me hung up this way

you told me, i was the girl. you love.

you told me, i was the one, you wanted.

and i am sure im sure im very sure.

you are the moon

of which im longing for~

ooooh.

this comes straight out from the heart.

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something i thought randomly in computer lesson. since i dont take computer. hahah (: im thinking of continuing it. haha these are just lyrics man. gotta find the melody harmony or whatever crap. HAHAH (: i got picss ;P

PICCTTTTUUURRRDDSS:

me in my sister's roooom (:

me! holding abi's pencilcase! notice how the colour red is the only colour that stands out :D hahahah, abi. yes dude, you OWN me cam ;p

(: BAZ HAS HAPPINESS!!! HAHAHAHAHA! look at baz's tiny grubby fingers (Y) i like ;)

the birthday girl on the 30th of july. HAHAHAHA (: jos jos. sexyyy.

BAZ AND MEEE ;)

we took a LOT of pictures. haha well kinda.. go to facebook for moreee :D imma put it up later :) so watch outtt.

xoxo. till here peoplee~

nahajiemah (:

2009-08-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

♥♥♥♥♥

happy birthday nazeemah :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAZ/NASI KATOK/BERIANI/CORNBEEF/ANYTHING NICE ♥

yesterday was special (:

2009-06-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

why was yesterday special you ask?

it's special cause, last year from yesterday, it was my first day in st andrews (: and i feel reaallly cool. cause i stuck in one school in one year (: if that makes sense, i cant be bothered to say much really. all i can say, st andrews made me into a whole new person (: and i love every second of it. i will and must work hard. i will and must pass through every obstacle you had me going through. i love you st andrews (: i love the people more (: HAHAHAH

pictards:

i love them :D

i love them! li juanny! and weeit :D

JAMES! my kindygarden friend (: and primary! dude, you havent changed at all (: I LIKE! stay that way.

i love her more♥ (: HAHAH

i've always loved her! HAHAH i mean i love you too jos (: ♥

Joz, Naz, Me (: first photo♥

aahh (: and it comes down to this photo, so many awesome memories. OUR first photo bebeh (: i still have itttt. HAHAH anyways, you are the rainbow in my sky and the sun ♥ i love you that way. saya suka the sun above our heads. HAHAHHA (: i love you girlpren/bespren. always and forever, im counting on it. ♥

that's the tudong gang/my circle of friends right there (: excluding the boys. HAHAH (: beautiful picture, we weren't close at that time. but we were gettin there innit? :D i ♥♥♥♥♥ them, they are AWESOME. the definiton of AWESOME in my life lah. heheh i couldnt find any single picture of baz, so yeah (: heheh. god, the boys are really disturbing. hahaha i mean, it couldve been only US! (: sexeh betchesss.

i wish, somehow i can crop this picture. but then i dont know how so yeah. anyways, i thought it was a picture of me alone, so i was gonna write a lot of awesome shizzle amazeballs stories about my journey, but since your face is there. i'll make it about you. whatever happend, whatever you do. im here for you. though it doesnt seem that way anymore. i dont mind it, at all. if you hate me, if your pissed at me, if you couldnt care less if i died today. i dont mind. i dont care.you were what i called "a trusted friend", a very trusted one. i've learnt that people who you think you used care about, you will always care about them, and you wont stop caring. i hate how its weird now. but fuck it. you think pretending nothing's wrong is the best, so be it. i have a life to continue on to. i just want to know why, i wont give up trying to ask you, yknow. but its okay Aaron. you have no chance of reading this, but word gets around so you eventually will read this. i'm acctually glad your in my class, im acctually glad you were the FIRST person i talked to on my first day, im acctually.... glad you're ignoring me, im acctually glad you going away from my life, im glad you dissapeared like one of your magic tricks, it may seem like im not over the fact you going away like that, OF COURSE IM NOT. you idiot. YOU ASSHOLE. i just wish i can say that to you. but ive gotten scared to talk to you nowadays. i miss you, friend ♥'s, koala's, kangaroo's, australia, phone, you , asshole, cheese, jerk, aaron.

"you make the darkness dissapear, i feel found when you are near"
always and forever in this school (: , maybe. im still betting on it (: ♥

till here. im off, before i let my tears out. i shall go and not be emotional. HAHAHHA love youu guys. soo much

just another day, thinking of you

2009-06-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

its never enough if i just say sorry and i miss you, to you. cause yeah, your right, i took you for granted i abondoned you. and you think im so happy about it? im not. of couse not. dude, you have no idea what i've been through here. its a lot and ive changed. ive learnt to value, ive learnt to miss, ive learnt whats right and wrong, whats a lie and whats the truth. i learnt to value you. ive learnt to miss you, ive learnt that you were right and there was nothing wrong. ive learnt that i lied and that you told me truth, cause the thing is, we are always like this. we fight, and when we see each other, we pretend everythings fine. i dont remember why we fought, why it is awkward now, why it is so hard to talk to you. i just miss you. i just, i just wish you were here.

interesting convo i had with you
rirahsulia:can i ask you something?
you:what?
rirahsulia:why did you fuck out of my life?
you:koz you were fucking with mine
rirahsulia:oh
rirahsulia:right that's a good answer thanks.
rirahsulia:anyways, i have a lot of better things to do rather than mope around and wait for you to say sorry. which is pointless. so, sorry. and no, i dont expect things to go to the way it were before, i just wanted to know what i did wrong to you. and that pretty much answer's everything. thanks (:

i cant talk to you. i want to say a lot of things so here goes,
i miss you. i love you man, you were always there, but i didnt even know.
so, just take your time in "forgiving me" which i know you never will. but yknow, i gave it a shot, i dont know what else to say.

ass, i cant stand it.

i cant stand it

2009-06-27T10:54:00.000-07:00

i really, cannot stand it. i cant help of being so overprotective.
i havent talked about those 2 people in DONKEY YEARS. guess what baz, your block and delete method didnt work. ): well i gave in to it, i chatted to him. and it wasnt nice, i mean it was, he still cared of course but the thing is, oh !! im talking about the first A not the AA. (: anyways, i dont care whatever hes doing or done. i just miss him. thats it yknow. i JUST MISS YOU. THATS IT! i really have no idea or clue to what to do. shizzy, that rhymes. HAHAH anyways just to let you follow my random complicated brain

i trust you are smart enough to leave, if not. you'll just hate me (: cause i'll keep going on and on and on and on. so its best we leave it to this. before i go

cookoo.

king of pop

2009-06-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

"Michael Jackson, the child star turned King of Pop who set the world dancing but whose musical genius was overshadowed by a bizarre lifestyle and sex scandals, died on Thursday. He was 50. Jackson was pronounced dead at 2:26 p.m. PDT (10:26 p.m. British time) after arriving at a Los Angeles hospital in full cardiac arrest, said Fred Corral of the Los Angeles County Coroner's office. The cause of death was not known and an autopsy would likely take place on Friday.

He was a "true musical icon whose identifiable voice, innovative dance moves, stunning musical versatility, and sheer star power carried him from childhood to worldwide acclaim," said Neil Portnow, president and CEO of The Recording Academy in a statement.

Jackson was born on August 29, 1958, in Gary, Indiana, the seventh of nine children. Five Jackson boys -- Jackie, Tito, Jermaine, Marlon and Michael -- first performed together at a talent show when Michael was 6. They walked off with first prize and went on to become a best-selling band, The Jackson Five, and then The Jackson 5.

About 200 fans and reporters gathered outside the Los Angeles hospital. Some fans cried and hugged each other."
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he's gone guys. the musical genius, the king of pop. is gone.
his comeback was supposed to happen in JULY.

he is a legend, and always will be.

"how can I stop losing you
How can I begin to say
When there’s nothing left to do
but walk away"
- michael jackson, dont walk away

nope, no boundries. (:

2009-06-21T04:49:00.000-07:00

i hate abandoning you ): but i had to, im acctually not making sense right now, but im just gonna type anyways. cause i suck (: HAAHHAHA whatever. i love baz's hair. i love the clouds. and i love the stars.

a smile a day keep the wrinkles away. i hope that someone remember's that quote.
i bet you wont, cause your an asshole.
you should just shoot yourself.
really.

SCREW IT.

OMG

2009-04-05T03:49:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG! i totally forgot! THIS IS THE 32nd POST! (':

anyways,
on saturday, me, babu, kaka, tikah and naz, we all went out to go to yayasan! and it was awkward, but yeah... pfft, but was FUN! (: cause we stayed back in yayasan, and used the compooper in the cyber cafe. thingy. i was the only one who was wearing casual cause i changed, tikah and naz was in their sports uniform! HAHAHAH! and twas was stalking ;) YKNOW! 3 hotness! HAHAHA!! and today, i went to tasek. jogged, and when i went to our meeting spot, my dad and sis wasnt there, so i jogged again like 2 rounds.. i was thinking of going up the lil bukit thing, but when i saw my sister and daddy coming down, i was like pfft. whats the point. HAHAHA. im very effed up with my english at the moment, because ITS MALAY MONTH! ;) awesome kan?!

i took load's of pics, and i shall put them up later! heheh! i just got back from netball, it was veryyy tiring, coach made us TRIPLE our training! cant blame her though, the tournament's coming up in like 2 WEEKS! so yaha'h! and and, i love my besties. theyre just awesome, too awesome (: SOME awesome words that will show my awesome love for my awesome besties:

HAHAHAH. I LOVE YOU! ta-da! awesome right? ;)

PICTURES! 8)

baz said i look old in this picture ): heheh i like it.

and here's a speshful bondness between 2 vain people. mother and daughter tah banarr :) and this aint the only one they took with the same pose. -.-

white patches, on my face, please eff off, please oh plays! wth.

theyre so awesome that they met my sister =p

this is TIKAH-MASALA(my sister calls you that btw)

and this is NAHAJIEMAH! <3

at last, THIS IS MINE! ;)

naz gave me the "crying" look, randomly -.- while we were vid calling, so i could hear her "fake crying" =p

i think thats all for updates loves (: I SHALL GO! pee.hehehe! BYE and, we talked about a whole load of shit while we were vid calling. HAHAH WE MUST KILL SIAPA NAZ? =pp

i do miss you.

2009-04-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

i feel like blogging.

i do miss you, as much as i'd hate to admit that. i cant stand being away from you, and we know you cant stand either. its always been like this, away from each other makes us so cranky, and pissy at each other. i hate you, i hate the way you changed. im sorry i left, i cant do anything, but im doing something by still being HERE in your life. you for all i know, IS my bestfriend(fourth to naz, tiks, and baz). i cant afford to lose you as my friend, my rock and the one i shared last moments with. im sorry, i just really wanna see that dude i became good friends with last time. i miss you, and no this post is not forced, your not gonna read it anyways (': i know how much you've moved on from our friendship(judging by our chats), but seriously, look into this picture, and tell me you hate me. )': come back, i know im being all whiney, but just please, i cant stand you changing, i cant stand people complaining about you. please.

remember this? bestfriendsforeverandever we call each other, it was at 10:21 am we took this.

2007-2008, thats enough to make an awesome friend like you.

to be honest, i love you bestfriend. it cracks my heart open to see you now.
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my sister's been back now for 4 days ;) HAHAH, and i have been soo pissy, and emo. sasak ku. everyones changing. i hate this. WHEN? WHY? WHERE? HOW? ='( why cant people be the way they were? why? i cant take it anymore.

screw, nail, hammer and drill life.

time flies.

2009-04-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

let it all fall (: because, eventually they fall into place.

from this:

to this:

and finally to THIS:

how time flies so fast. (': im greedy, and a very moody bitch.

life

2009-03-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

OH WELL,

i aint got no time to kill,
im so booked and its real,
i hate tuition,
i love netball,
i guess your decision,
is right after all,
cause i cant be freaked to do these things,
that i would give up my life and wings,
i hate that your right,
i hate that your wrong,
i hate that this time,
i cant rap or sing this song.

HAHAHAHHA, i had a very interesting morning, day and night! (:
morning, well i woke up at 12, so no morning, hahaha. my day!! i saw my mum got sucked by leeches (as wrong as that sounds), its kinda interesting, theyre really awesome, cute lil blood suckers. HAHAH! but yeah, it was a treatment thingy, and my mum, being all paranoid, got leeches to suck out the "bad" stuff in the body.

im happy, i am. hahaha, as much as these "haha"'s wont convince those close buddies (: but i am, NOT with my heart (god, corny much?) but with me. HAHAH, I just realised that im a very corny person, i will either just throw away the word love to you or just say i miss you (: HAHAHA for random reasons. ALSO! i realised, that im selfish. in eating, HAHAH i mean like, if i ordered the food, and you just taste it first, I WOULD BE PISSED OFF! cause i love having the first bite! (: see? self centred! HAHAHA im self absorbed, and to top it all off, my bangs make me look older. imma tell you what happend in the supermarket, like a few days ago!! ):
this random lady came up to me and suggested me to use this product on my face, she said.with a happy and weird looking face (we were at jaya hypermart) "us, married ladies have to take care of our faces, esp bodies, we wouldnt want to dissapoint our husbands" with a sleek and weird smile, so i said with a very dissapointed, and sad and pissed off face "i am still 14! do i really look that old???" and walked off (: HAHAHAHAHA! honestly, i was acctually laughing when i walked off.

so ahh.. i love my blog (see about the corny thing?) hahahah! i shall sleep now. HAHAH its latttteee! ):
OH OH, naz+me=SUPAWESOME! (:
xoxo till next post.

bangs bangs bangs bangs.

2009-03-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

right, bangs (:

i cut it at home, well i didnt cut it myself, this "person" who supposedly is a good hairstylist came to our house, and did all of the "women" in the house, including my maid 8) and she already left to manila ):

PICS!

IM GOING CRAZY, naz left to singapore ): and im lonely, NAZZ GET YOUR LOVELY ASS BACK IN BRUNEI! this crazyness FEELING wont go. YOUR ONLINE!!! AAAAAAAAAAA, ima talk to you now, so ima dump you blog, and talk to bespren who is away, and comforting her bro for this awesome operation! (: BYEEE!

just let me give up

2009-03-17T06:35:00.000-07:00

let me give up :)

Josefina Jazlan (: and life (:

2009-02-26T01:23:00.000-08:00

I'd like to dedicate this awesome short half-post to josefina jazlan (:

from the past couple of weeks, ive been feeling a "weird" vibe around you. you should know that, it's not that i or we don't tell you things, its just that, i or we dont think there's much to tell. and i/we wouldn't think you'd understand about it. but of course there is nothing (: i/we just want you to know, that you mean THAT much to me/us. and if there is something that you want to tell or show or do whatever to me/us, you know you can right? i/us trust you. i trust you, i hope you wouldn't do anything to break that trust. 8) wanna know why i trust you? cause i think your one of a kind, and i trust you cause you are in MY/OUR circle of friends, you all and you are my EVERYDAY laughter, despite all the things that you think your left out(even though thats such a LOSER thought ;)), i just want YOU, JOSEFINA JAZLAN, to know that i/we love you. and i/we dont mean to make you feel left out, i/we dont think that we have much to tell anyways (: I/WE LOVE YOU, JOSEFINA JAZLAN (:

thats it for your dedication thingy jos :) hehehe
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ANYWAYS! people, i have been very busy and annoyed and pissed (: hahaha. stressy, but unstressy when yeah someones there ;) anyways! whats my anyways hmm.. WELL HI!~ I BLOGGED! HI5 MAN! arent you all happy to read my useless post? (': sniff sniff* i love 3R, im glad i came in that class, and the first person i saw was james yknow! hahahah! it was like, "OMG! JAMEES" heheh! i sit next to baz now, and and im replacing my cacat and ugly phone with the LG cookie. (: the one that BAZ has!!! (: people will probably think that im copying her, but HEY, i was eyeing on that phone for MONTHS! (: I HAVE A COOL QUOTE MAN! ---> "Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar" 8) MY dad told me that thingy! hahaha well it was at his email thing, and i read it and hes like "HAHAH, yeah one of my friends sent me that...yadaddadada" hehe! i'll have to cut down on swearing, since i know that dad is reading my blog -.- HAHAH (: and and, ren wee is the MOST amazing person TO ANNOY! (: he has this same face weird reaction like JOS! hahahahahah! 8) so far, everything's in an angle of elevation. everything is looking up, and i'd like to keep it that way, and if someone tires to kill that, ill kill you. and i dont just say it (A) everything is where its supposed to be, just got to work FREAKING hard for all the tests and exams. i have a healthier lifestyle in brunei than in london. of course i still miss them, but come to think of it, i asked myself, why DO i miss them? i didnt do anything to make myself a better person around them, come to think of it, theyre useless... not in a regretful way, (: i love them, haha. i just regretted that i dont know i could have friends like them, and i didnt know that i could change (: so bottom line ( cause im getting lazier) is that, i love where i am now, and dad since your going to be reading this, DONT MOVE. not just yet. 8)

thank you and BOWS*! much loveee!

freee

2009-02-08T00:19:00.000-08:00

i feeel like BLOGGING (:

I FIXED MY CACAT BLOG ! (: wheeee, i will blog sometime later. now i feel lazy, god ive been spending waaay too much time with tiks. ;)
till later. HAHA
x

love and war

2009-01-11T03:08:00.000-08:00

so yeah, 2 weeks, we-well i ended it. hahah (: its actually not an emo sad heartbreaking break up. he was really cool with it so we're friends, ask me on msn why i changed my mind HAHAH (: i wont be deleting my memories. so yeah, just thought that i'd say:

IM SINGLE LIKE PRINGLES! (: and maybe staying that way, for a short time =p

well details close friends? (: do ask on msn hahahah.

sister emergency

2009-01-05T01:51:00.000-08:00

school huh?

so shit, haha. there were so many things i needed to know, gossip wise, and also this year, i need to fucking triple(1000000x) work! . triple my effort in every subject, esp maths and malay and commerce. the others, i aint worried about, i mean yes, im worried about all of the subs, but i need to give SPECIAL attention to them 3!! (:

so today miss lorene was talking about the future, saying we need to decide now. i mean, yeah. saying how 4CS is hard, and while she was talking, i went really frustrated and annoyed with myself. BECAUSE, i have no fucking clue of where i want to go. i mean which class. i choose CS, but then i wanna do science i mean bio. but i wanna do history and all that crap. AGH, ka i need you, i need you to "ceramah" me till i am fed up with you and make a choice.

help? i love you.
ady texted me all morning, saying how my first day was, and bladiblabla, joking.
i love you as my frienddd (:
short post love (: sorry. hehe
x

NEW YEAR (:

2009-01-01T04:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEARS (:

theres a lot of time, fix your future not your past.

xoxo make this year good.

2008-12-13T13:24:00.000-08:00

Dear 21 post,

Well Hellooo, its beeeeeeeeen 7 months since i went back from UK. 7 months people. 7 MONTHS, and im okay with that (: and 4 months in St Andrews - regarding of that, i loved every minute i spent with the people there (: i just want to mention a few names that ive loved since i went in St. Andrews :

Nazeemah
-NAZ NAZ (: when i first came to the school, you were the second person i talked to, you've welcomed me (: you've never FAILED to acctually BE THERE? i can trust you, i can call you anytime, i feel "welcome" haha, basically your great ;) and and and ive grown to have your amazingly weird habit HAHAH. joking =p your a verryyy good friend, (: and truly have gone close with me. so im very thankful i sat next like with a gap in between to you on my first day. HAHA im thankful that your my ****FRIEND 4 months weirdo (: (im sensoring the word "Best" cause someone might get jealous or pissed) 8) LOVE YOUUUUU.[ iknow ive told you this many many many many times xp] HEHEHEHEHEHE

Atikah
- TITICACAHUMAN (: well, hmm this is hard. HAHAH joking (: you can make me laugh, but cant make me stop. HAHA, i can trust you, i can tell you anything too (: your "AWESOME" (-ly lame) hehe, basically, i can talk to you - FREEELY hhahaha, and you make me laugh, looking at your face makes me laugh, cause you have this face that is funny - not in a mean way !! HAHAH (: but yeah, your amazing. im thankful that we're as close (: 4 months since i came back =p i am a bundle of embarasment and bad luck (: HEHE I LOVE YOU TIKKY

Bazilah
- Bazzylightyear, when i first saw you, i thought like "man, she looks mean" BUT boy was i wrong? HAHA, you are mean, but your BAZ! and when i first heard your name, i thought "BAZZLIGHTYEAR!" hahahaah, i still call you that (: so basically, your like google. and you remind me of one too (: hahaha. your GREEEEAAATTT (: im really not good at this. HAHAH, but yeah, bazilah is one in a trillion? hahaha. your funny in your own way. well, im thankful for meeeeting the most, sarcastic, negative, unsmiley, funny, nice[once i got to know you anyways =p] and and and and the-person-who-corrects-stuff (: HEHEHE. 4 MONTHSSSSS

Josefina
-JOS JOS JOS!, what can i say about you? haha love you really. basically, this girl. she cool (: and funny, and a BLONDE BIMBO, sometimes moody, but we can make her happy. HAHAHA, this malaysian cutie here, shes an amazing person, shes freeeeeee. like really (: hahah, im really really not good at this. HAHAH josefina, is grool. and she smiles, and laughes, and makes this hilarious face when she laughes. im goddarn thankful that i sat next to you in ugama (: and thankful that your my close friend, (although i thought you were disgusted of me 0.o) but im proud to call you my closest friend, 4 MONTHS BAYBAY. 0.0 (: 8) ohhh ohh ohh hahahahah what the hell LOVE YOU

hehehe, well these 4 hereee, are like so far the closest ive been with (: since day 1, when naz said come with us (: HAHA, it was naazzee, and weeks after that came bazzy and tikky and jossy. we clicked during UGAMA HAHA. thats when our big hit of a show called "gay/bi/lesbian show" all started out, In UGAMA (:

so, i guess this post is about how happy i am. i mean, being apart from my sister "kaka aufa" feels like she took half of my body away, or my brain, or heart, so these 4 people, can make me leave my strong face, can put back half of my body or brain or heart and make me laugh (: so what im trying to say here, is that i love you guys. i dont care how corny that sounds (: but your my everyday laughter. HAHAHAHA literally =D

yesterday, i went with tikah, to watch twilight. HAHAH and we had big mac, and and had bundles of embarrasment "bayar di dapan" HAHAHAHA TIKAH TIKAH! (:

THANK YOU THANK YOU *bows*
till next time (: hahaha
xoxo

2008-11-23T01:32:00.000-08:00

i owe you guys pictures

(:

Long Time

2008-11-05T08:40:00.000-08:00

So CHEEYEAH!!!

EXAMS! FUDGING, FLIPPIN, FUKING, OVER :)!!!!!
WHOOHOOO. LET GET THE PARTY STARTED IN HERE! OOH OH OH! YEA YEA YEA YEA.

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i was trying to "type" that song by Black Eyed Peas >.<>

WE'RE GOING TO THE BEACH TO SEE THE BITCH!

hahahah! nazee would say that, :), well not much really, im just bored. so i'd thought i'd update, but i didnt really think of what about :) HAHAH. wth. WAAITTT.
PICCTUREE TIMMEEE!

sorry guys, my connection retarded :)
i shall do it next time
after all, that is a nice pic of me ;) errrr..
:) BYEEEE

Your Never There.

2008-10-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH POST!
i think its time.
its time to show the world, [or the people thats reading this]
that writing songs, well for me,
feels amazing (=
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this song is dedicated to someone close to me,
-you guys are always the center
dont read it, hahaha, its better when i sing it, not saying i can sing but oh well.

Verse1:
its not enough to see,
that your never there,
am i blinded by these walls
closing on me.
i cannot find the meaning,
of love....

Chorus:
its time to go yeah
its time to go in our separate ways
its time to free my wings
and fly away,
cause this place is a mess,
i cant find my happiness.

Verse2:
and i hate,
how they say home is a place,
to be yourself in,
but all you do,
is just go away,
and thats the truth
you never care.
you never were aware.

Chorus:
its time to go yeah
its time to go in our separate ways
its time to free my wings
and fly away,
cause this place is a mess,
i cant find my happiness.

Bridge:
and i had a dream,
we'd all be happy,
but dreams are only dreams
and ive learnt from you,
that they never come true.....

End:
Oh, its time to go yeahh,
its time to go in our separate ways, [i wanna go our separate ways]
its time to spread my wings and fly away [just let me fly away]
because in this mess, [i cannot stand it anymore]
oh in this mess,[yeah.]
yeah in this mess..
i cannot find happiness..
the meaning of love is none.

-its always you guys.
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the moment of emoness is gone.

haaa, well i wrote that song on the spot,
weird, thats how i write songs. pfft.

LIST OF THINGS NOT DONE FOR THE TIME BEING [HAHAHA] :

1) Go to london once more.
2) GO OUT WITH GASPARD
3) MARRY GASPARD.
4) be a professional musician HAAAA.
5) SING sing SING sing
6) LOSE A LOT OF FREAKIN WEIGHT. Like 100000 kilo. Apakan exaggerating.
7) ACE EXAM. GET AT LEAST B+
8) Prove my parents wrong about me
9) Im Not Stupid.
10) Im Just Lazy

HAHAH, my favorite is 8,9 and 10 (=
Current tunes- Tired And Uninspired-My American Heart

I love this song, its amazing, and it means something, Despite my little song at the beginning of this blog, I am A-OKAY !! Felt a lil emoness, I MISS KAKA AUFA BAH. Now, im doing my geography, homework. Bleghh, =( I no like. I feel hurt, heck this is a blog, I don’t care. I feel hurt, I want to talk to someone, I don’t expect anyone to be there, I don’t expect you to understand, I just want you to listen. Those words I wrote at the beginning, pretty much explains why I am crying, and writing a song. Haaa, why am I biting my hand? Whyyy is the sky blue, why are stars yellow?! When they’re actually white from afar, I feel like a genius.

HAHAHA, god now im scaring myself, im actually listening to trivium. OO, its H.I.M now, I love H.I.M, they’re a band for those peeps that sucks HAHAHA. Jokes. DARK LIGHT~ I love this song. Aaa, let me take a moment to love this song, and then ill get back to you. HAHA. BAACK. Right now, IM HAVING A STUDY GROUP ON MSN WITH BAZ AND JOS. and baz gave up. pfft.

Hahahahaha!! We’re studying ugama because we have ugama test tomorrow and we love coming in prepared. Pfft. SO I GTG! (= jos is our time keeper. HAHAH

xxxx -rirah, dont critise my lyrics. (= Ly. xxxx

Updating.

2008-10-17T06:29:00.000-07:00

HELLO DEAR 18TH POST.
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LETS REWIND (=

i have been so inactive with blogger, SORRY!!, i have been like REVISING, and like DOING HOMEWORK, but i always go ONLINE (= hardy harr harr. OH GOD! i haven't wished you guys:

SELAMAT HARIRAHYA! :)
[notice the "harirahya"]

so yeahh, on the first day of raya, i didnt really go anywhere... my parents were "busy". so i stayed at home, like a dork, in my baju kurung, and eating ben and jerrys, and at night i went to my relatives, whom i barely knew... )= BUT!! on the second day, I Went to the palace (= i got to meet, the queen and the princesses. unfortunately, not the princeys. )'=.

OKAY! people people. I MET THE MOST AMAZING ASIAN VOCALIST IN THE WORLDIE (=
HER VOICE IS PURE, AND SOFT, AND STRONG. and she is...

AGNES MONICA :)

shes really cooool. like so cool, my dad got like tickets from baiduri to this little show thingymajig, so my mum didnt want to go, so i went!! (= and it was AWESOME-WESOME-ESOME-SOME-OME-ME-E. :) she sang like 4 songs was it? AND, NAZEE WAS THERE!~! hahaha, so recently, i have conjunctivitis, but im okay now... and today!!! i have tuition, (= i feel like so cool cause i got like 50 1/2 out of 70 for like this little test, in BM. (= soooo cool. IM like improving. haaaa, i am proud. so now im in my maids room, shes more of a sister to me, well something close to a sister (= i love her, her name is JOCELYN hahaha~ oh and i am loving the oldies. HAAA

PICTURE TIMEEEEEEEE.
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for some fudging reason i cant fudgestick upload some fudging pictures. haha~ well sometime soon, ill be sure to post some pics (=
xxxx ttys. -rirah-kingkong-romeo-sleepingbeast-rirnessnessness.

TO BAZ AND TIKAH, BEN AND JERRYS IS ICE CREAM, EVERYONE LOVES IT. ITS THE SEX. THE SEX GOD, IF IT WAS A PERSON, I WOULD MARRY IT AND god knows what. ....
OH GOD. hahahahahahaha wth.

Woopdeedoop

2008-10-01T01:00:00.000-07:00

HEELLOOO!

I shall be annoying, to you 17th post! :)

so updatess :
1)I played random chords on my keyboard, and those random chords sound preetty amazing (= hahaha
2)I HAVE A VERY NICE BIMBO! its all bazzylightyear and titicacahuman's fault! www.missbimbo.com
3) I have a very cute white seal, given by azim ghani. pfft, i no like you ass, but i love zimmy! this little seal, we have decided to call, zimmy...since it was given by azim. so yeah.. :')
4) SAS is full with lovable people!! ahah
5) IM BORED

wooh, i am pooped. [not literally] HAHA!
wth.
so i guess thats it (=
ttys dear posts.
xoxo [MACAM GOSSIP GIRL] hahaha juliet.
-rirah

Did you forget?

2008-09-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

Dear 16th Post,

i am... annoyed )=
its stupid.. i dont like being annoyed... and something magical happend, I like one of Demi Lovato's song! eghh!!! i cannot believe it! her song : Demi Lovato - Forget. its like a miracle -__-, i acctually like it cause, it reminds me of something/someone. its something, that just... agh, you wouldnt get it.

Lyrics:
Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
please don't forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

those bold and coloured ones, are the important stuff in this song that reminds me of something/someone <33

well, these couple of days, i had no time at all to update this blog. I had to go out with my mum -___-. i know. lool!

so anywaysss, i gtg.
xoxo
much love - rirah

Tired & Uninspired

2008-09-16T20:02:00.000-07:00

Dear 15th blog,

I am currently listening to "Tired & Uninspired By My American Heart" haha, OH OH guess what?!?!!? ME AND BAZ BROKE UP! well she dumped me, so then i kinda asked NAZEE out, then NAZEE got pissed off.. :( its okay now though, IM STRAIGHT AS A RULER!! (= Oh and from now on, im counting down my latest blogs (= hehe.

So yesterday, i stayed up till like 12+ WAITING for MY SISTER[hope your reading this aufa]!!! and guess what? SHE DIDNT EVEN COME ONLINE, EH useless. TIME WASTED!! hehe, right now im like in the car, going out! with my baby cousins and my mummy and also my aunt (=
YAY. im bored now.

okay i gtg now. haha short blog
promise to update you soon (=
xx

2008-09-14T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hey-ness,

So, today i didnt go to school. It was my second day of my periodic table. and hurts a lot. esp when i drank a lot of Root Beer, Ptff and to think it was the most amazing drink. Anyways, so i missed school today, i woke up at 10, and found myself in the dark, alone and- i wont tell you gory details :) haha, so right now i just felt like i want to update this blog, OH OH, i found an amazing song, its okay, its a good songg!!

it is called "Do You Feel By The Rocket Summers" :) i totally recommend it~!! lyrics:

I'm thinking about other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands can create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes us look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things I guess

I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things

Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your things
Yeah we all so many things
And I can get past these things

Ohhh

So, What i end up doing at home is *drum rolls*

BABYSITTING

Yeah man, didnt think i could handle a baby did you? haha, WELL YOUR WRONG! i fed them, bathe them after school, theyre about 4-5 theres 2 of them, so i pretty much dont have to do anything, except feed them. YAY :) i should really get paid people.

okay people, i will update soon, soon...
i WILL go to school tomorow
i HAVE to go to school tomorow :)

Bye-ness -rirah

2008-09-10T04:40:00.000-07:00

OFFICIALLY 14 =)

Oh Poooo. im 14 yay!

So today, when i walked in the class, i was sitting down innocently. Then everyone started greeting me "Happy Birthday". So i was just like oh okay then, at least they didnt sing, But NOOO, atikah started then lily then EVERYBODY. I was drowning in my seat :S haha, but that was the sweetest thing. [although i wouldnt say u guys can sing :P] and after that, when james [james was my ex-classmate. he havent changed at all :D] was going to the dust bin, he sang "happy birthday to you rirah" at first i didnt know where that sound was coming from, then i looked back, and there was good ol' james, so then i said, "awwh thank you" and he just ran off... i think hes secretly scared of me.. since i look like a man with my tudong.. :( haha.

after school, me and nazee had plans :D yes haha, me and nazee my fiancee HAHA. well so, 1stly we wanted to go watch movie "MIRRORS", but then nazee wasnt allowed to watch a movie "during puasa" so we went to the arcade and SUNG our hearts OUT! haha, so yeah, we went to arcady and bought dvd's :D well she bought like 6 dvd's i bought 1..SAVE MONEY BAH. haha, yeah, it was fun overall. NAZEE, WE DIDNT TAKE PICTURES! i like ;P and so i went home, yes no cake, weird...but i get to cut a big piece of fish!!! :D so thats good enough for me.

i had a good day. i like, usually in london it would be different celebrating my birthday :D. way different.. hahaha. well im tired and ima go now :D.

xxxxx

Last Day Being 13 :D

2008-09-09T04:54:00.000-07:00

So yes, My birthday is tomorow.
and i am suprisingly calm about it...

AAAA, IM GROWING OLDER. NOOOOOO
MY YOUTH. MY FACE. MY BODY. PIMPLES.

but on the other hand, i get to say
"my names rirah, and im 14 :D"
hahahahah

soo, peeps, 14. big numbers *shrugss*, so updates huh? okay, updatess;

1) my birthday tomorow
2) i went out with azim twice, and went to his house for sungkai, for his brothers birthday :D (i didnt want to btw)
3) Kaka aufa LEFT me, and STOLE my ECLIPSE and BREAKING DAWN. [i do miss you beb]
4) School's going really fast, and im scared, scared of end of year exams.. :( HELP?
5) IM FASTING
6) I AM POOPED
7) I GOT DITCHED, BY THE 2 PEOPLE I SHOULDNT MENTION, WHO I CURRENTLY HATE.
8) Im A FAILURE.
9) school is a bore to me. but i do like it. not love of course..
10) I MISS KAKA. IM HUNGRY, AT 9:29. I LOVE MY HAIR. I HATE MY FACE. I HATE HER. I HATE HIM. :D

so there's the uppydates. :D. oh and as for no 8, i failed :( failed, maths commerce etc etc....
but everyones like, its okay its only 2nd assesments, :D nazee will help ME! maths.
and i miss kaka, KAA!!! i miss you, where r u? hha, im webbycaming with u right now acctually :D HOPE you settle in well, in bruhally THE COOLEST PLACE ON EARTH!! :D where all the cool people hang out, now your one of those saddoes :D. JOKING.

okie peeps, i need to sleep, i know its like 10 now, BLAME NAZEE, shes been sleeping real early, good influence there. hahahah :D
xxxxxx thankies xxxxx

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

Poo.

2008-08-21T02:27:00.000-07:00

Ladidadidadidadidaaaaaaaaaaaa.
ladida :D

Wth. ha-ha but anyways, I had my first day of 2nd assessment test. I didn’t find it difficult really, just commerce, I got confused about the trial balance thingy, but it was fine, at least like I remembered all the definitions and stuff. Same as geography, I remembered all the whatchamacallit. All the stuff… ahaha, it was okay, I found English easy. Wasn’t really hard, not mind twisting :D Ohhmyygadders, MATH ON SATURDAY. That’s mind twisting, even pronouncing maths is like WOOAAAH. Hahaha, I officially buried my head with books, I slept with my math’s book open, and me drooling all over it, leaving marks, hahahah. Ew.

OMG, I know what is 75 divided by 5! It is 15! Amazing, ah proud moment. Hahahah, I know, there’s nothing to be proud of but to me it’s like knowing how to read jawi. Ha-ha, I am bored now. Taylor’s been like questioning me hahaha. I have nothing to say, like my baby cousin is the most spoilt brattiest, of the bratties lil annoying piece of meat. I swear, so annoying. GRRR.
Hahaha
Okay I think that’s it for now :D, bored as hell, and annoyed by that little Grinch.
BYE BYE :D wish me luck for tomorrow :D
Hahaha

xxxxxxxxxx

Droplets

2008-08-18T02:47:00.000-07:00

I found this song like weeks ago, and its still my favorite song :D
not a really big fan of the original version but yeah, miaarose did a cover which is soo much better.

Droplets By Colbie Cailat && Jason Reeves

I'm leaving you
I'm not sure if that’s what I should do
It hurts so bad
I'm wanting you but cant go back
Trying to find, to find
That all elusive piece of mind
Stuck here somehow
Shrouded beneath my fear
And now I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting for
The droplets, droplets

You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I'm with you
To me everything is effortless
You know its true
My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your tears

You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me

You left a mark you left a mark
She left a mark he left
She left he left
And I don’t.
Need it.

:D

Sick.Tired.Bored.Hopeless.Sad

2008-08-08T22:21:00.000-07:00

Hey Peeps,

i fell sick :(, yes i miss them too much that i fell sick. so today i didnt go to school. so the people in st andrews, pleasee tell me what to wear on monday, and what to bring. i dont know what to bring cause i have 2nd assesment test. no biggie, but i still have to study, which is what im doing today :) cause im a good girl :D yeah right. so right now, i am alone, feeling the silence that goes through this room, except for the music playing. i just had lunch, hence why i have been prolonging this post :D right now, im feeling as if the silence is mocking me, i know. weird. but oh well, lettuce not talk about that, HAHA geddit? lettuce? let us?...

anyways, tonight is our "father and daughters' ritual saturday night"!! haha. so yea, im looking forward to it, although im not sure my daddy wants to talk to me, cause i skipped school today, but IM SICK. so porgibe me haha. "i wish you were here" haha, sorry for the randomness, im listening to this song on my blog. its so addictive hahaha wth.

so like now its 3:18, and i started the first paragraph on 12:30. hahha.
well i guess thats all for now?

bbyeee xxx

Wish You Were Here.

2008-08-07T03:10:00.000-07:00

Sigh*

In a couple weeks time my sister will be flying off back to London. :( of course i will miss her, but im jealous, im jealous that she can go back there :(. i envy, i mean its not like i dont like it here, i do! i love it, its just that i wont get used to this anytime soon. i am depressed, depressed cause of not seeing my friends ever again, depressed of not wearing a thick winter coat again, depressed of not going ice skating ever again, basically depressed of all the things in the past, in the past that i wont be able to do. unless of course i get a scholarship, but that wont happen. this is depressing, everything in school reminds me of something. even seeing lily and her boyfriend, reminds me of cyrus and edith, but of course cyrus and edith are sweeter [no offence] gosh, i should stop hanging over the past. its not good to, i shouldnt, i have amazing people around me. i should be thankful anyways. i guess its alright to miss london, but its not alright to hang on to it.

THE PAST IS PAST. THE PRESENT IS NOW.

well that didnt help (= haha. today, i felt down. sleepy, that is cause SOMEONE kept me up till 1*winks*. right now, im alone in the living room. in the dark, and listening to this song on my blog kate voegele-wish you were. and im also listening to my favorite baby cousin crying. making me cry too. gah, its unbearable really, its unbearable how much i miss them, him, you. whatever.
oh i guess i should go now, my daddy had some plans for tonight as always, being the best driver/daddy i could ever ask for, while my mummy work. work..
BYE! till the next post

x

2008-08-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

Picturess :D. [I Was Borred :D]

Libby, Taylor, Phil And Jessie

Me, Trying To Get Up From Falling. And It HURTS A Lot When You Fall On The Ice.

Me, Taylor And Emma <3

Mia, Me And Taylor <33

Me, Anthony The Pimp, And Taylor

Me, Anthony Waste Man, Taylor, Ali And Nic

Me And Taylorrrr

Anthony Monteza [he may look cool here, but in the ice rink he looked constipated ;P]

Sophiaaaaa My Best Skater haha

A Small Fraction Of The Crew <33

Alex K, Asher, And Solomon

The Big Tree,[we had to go to the 1st floor to take this pic :D. Me, Juliaa, Libby

Julia, Me[Pulling Up My Trousers] And Libby

Anthony Kotrukkis, Holdin My Bag And Julia, Looking Like A Gay Ass :D And Libby

Me!! i look demented :D

Me, Taylor And Jessie.

Libby And Me <3333

Azim At The Back, Yassykins, Taylor, Victor And Josh

Me And Libby At Ping Pong!

Me And All The Food We Ate!

Money Money Moneyyyyyy! Money

Asher, Sophia, Nic And Emma <33

Jessie The BFF :D

Julia The BFFE :D bufff stuff

BEST DRAMA TEACHER! :D Mr Langdon!

My Other BFFE <333

The Pic Says It All :)

Jessie Drew Me This!

I Miss Them )=

2008-08-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

Tonight, im bored. its 11:32 and i cannot sleep.
i wonder why.
i am missing you, yknow.
you know who you are~
i just didnt think it would last this long
i want everything to go back to like when we had that london dungeon trip.
it was like only both of us there.
but then obviously there was people.
an adventure of a 13 yr old.
to be honest, i hate this.
i hate the distance between us.
its not fair.
i dont like it and i never will.
but alas good luck my fellow non-emo chap.
you are my bestfriend, and my "special" friend.
and you always will be, wanna know why?
cause YOU ARE AMAZING.

sorry about that little ramble. i was bored, and tired, and to top it all off i cannot sleep.
so i kinda missed someone well everyone basically..
okayy i gots to go sleeping now :)
xxxxxxxxxx

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAZEE <33

2008-08-05T07:19:00.000-07:00

Hello People!

Me And The Birthday Girl During The ICC thingy-majig

Yesterdaaayy was NAZEE’S BIIRTTHHDDDAAAYY! Hahah it was reeaaaallly fun, its like my first outing with them so kinda made it more exciting :)!! So we went to dynasty, and the food, omg the food was goooood!! I loved it! Soo amazing, and THANKS AGAIN NAZEE! So after that we went to “the mall”, hahah. It was fun, ive only been there for like 3 times I think, or more. So its like my 4^th time now~ yaay, and did I mention that nazee’s brother is like the most cutest thing I had ever seen, well not as cute as my baby cousin, but of course hes one of the cutest peeps.

He said to me:

N:Your Big, Like A Wrestler!

R:I Know Right.

N: But I Could Carry You.

R:No Thanks Kid, You’ll Probably Suffocate :D

Hahahah, I had the most funniest conversation with that kid. Love em’

Twas’ really fun, I had like a blast! Also cause its my first time being in that arcade, and the karaoke box. It was only me, nazee, josefina, shin ling, nyuk shan and weeithien. Oh and did I mention I met bazilah on my way out. We had a funny convo too:

R:Booo!

B:*shocked face*heyy.

R:Nazee and them lot are upstairs.

B:Oh Nahh. And I know this may seem weird but I do change, hahaha.

R: Ohhh hahah who you with?

B:Family. *points to the model look-a-like Chinese people*

Oh and she said “I know this may seem weird but I do change” because she was still in her P.E school top, so yeaaa. Hahahah, I don’t know why, but I feel so happy! I feel like in a good mood! YAY! :) Although I still do miss London, the way we celebrate birthdays are totally different. Which is quite disappointing. We celebrate in parks. Mainly hyde park, or primrose hill. J filled with booze [of course I just sit on the tree, cause I do not drink] and drunk people running around. Hahaha, its quite funny, id rather have an innocent party with S.A.S-ians, But I do miss the wild times :D ~

This little corner goes out to nazee [you better read this]

RizHwana Nazeemah [noticed I spelled it correctly this time :)]

You have been a wonderful friend,

Even though I haven’t known you for so long,

But it feels as If I have,

I have shared a lot of things with you,

And I hope you would just keep it to yourself for now ;)

This little corner isnt going anywhere,

But I just wanted to say

Thank you for being a great trusted friend

Thank you for making it feel like i have a home

For the 1 month I have been in this school,

And thank you for always being there,

And I hope you know ill be here too :))

Oh and last but not least

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY. MAY ALLAH SHOWER YOU WITH BLESSINGS, CAUSE YOU DESERVE IT BABES :)

XXXX loves xxx

So thanks anyways, heheh! WELL i will definetly update you soon with the picturessss [if i have any :D]! :D

BYE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Whats Up?

2008-08-03T04:29:00.000-07:00

Hey People,

So, On Saturday was an “okay” day. Nothing exciting happened, I felt really moody after school. So I wasn’t really in a happy “woot” mood on after school, knowing I had to go back to this hell house. I don’t know why. Oh well nuff’ said :)

So Saturday night, I went out with my daddy and of course my sister :), as I said, we have this ritual every Saturday night we hang out, or cruising down the street hahaha :D its funny~, and of course there are those unproductive drives hahah. Being so indecisive.

Soo anyways, today the family went out, but of course not my mummy, shes too “busy”. So my dad drove obviously, we went to the muara beach, we were just exercising our eyes, hahaha. Of course, my family excluding my sister [LOL], is too lazy to get out of the car. Now we’re back at the house, [notice I don’t call it home] being really bored. That reminds me I have to timetable. But I cant be arsed. Ahah. Now I gtg. My sister needs this lappy, after all, she is bringing this lappy back to London )=

Love you all. You know who you are (=

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Sing Lets Sing.

2008-07-31T02:29:00.000-07:00

Helloo =]

I AM BEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIRED && EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aahh, I had extra class with miss gorilla[commerce teacher], twas fun, I kept moving here and there, just cause I couldn’t see the board =]. As nazee said “rirah you have been travelling”-followed by a big grin on her face. Okay, so today was David’s last day, david is this dude, who is practically like the class clown =], very nice, unpredictable. I guess that’s a way to describe him ;) so he left, and we had extra class, fun innit? Yes, school for me, im coping well, with the people, and the subjects. The people there, are sooo innocent, like little angels but without wings LOL. They’re really nice, They’re sense of humour is different, but funny in a way. I Like =]
Well, after all that shiznits happened, at night same ritual; me, daddy, and kaka went out =]. We were planning to go to Bandar because of the last day of celebrating, and what-not. Butttttt, nooo, Bandar is officially PACKED with people, and the traffic. Gosh, so we decided to….EAT!! hahaha, well after a long discussion of picking a place to eat, we finally agreed on one =].
After eating, we went cruising down Jerudong street haha. Went to empire, didn’t get out of the car though. Just drove haha too lazy to get out of the car :)! soooooo, now its 12:30 nope! 12:31! Hahah. I got to goo.
Im soo beat, tired and exhausted hahaha. As I said ;) well BYE!!! Till the next post :D

and this lil corner goes out to david chin. i dont know him well, but sure going to miss his sense of humour BYEEE DEBIT!!!! XX CYA SOON!!! [debit=david]

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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New Post

2008-07-19T04:10:00.000-07:00

AAAH SHIZZ, hey guys, anyways, this is my new BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Note: this blog was written in Microsoft word, for ages ago, due to the internet prob] hee xp

I deleted my old blog because I didn’t like my old name. Ha-ha, I know right, weird. Anywhoo, IM IN ST ANDREWS SCHOOL!!! Yes yes, I had my first day for about almost 2 weeks ago, it was scary, yes I was firkin nervous, ha-ha and I wore TUDONG, you should see my face! It looks like a frying pan, ha-ha!!! Well in school only though. Ha-ha~ now I’m coping fine... I just, I miss P.P.S, Only syahirah knows how I feel… leaving friends behind, leaving that “special” friend. I guess, this moving thingy, I should get used to it, but funny thing is I’m not, I really didn’t show any emotions when I left Singapore... I don’t know why, I guess because I had more special things going on in London, and special people there, I mean come on! 3 years in londres?? Even you! You’d miss it right??

Ha-ha, owh well. It’s alright, at least I made friends here, and they’re soooooooo amazingly nice! And so lovely. Did I mention I met my old classmate? I met like 4 of my old classmates, and they’re my current classmate! Sorry for haven’t been updating much. Ha-ha~ I’ll just use this for random use. Hardy harr harr.

I should describe St Andrews for you lot. Well, the people there are reeeaaaly nice! Except of course the commerce teacher, I hate her. On my 6^th day she shouted at my face, for not having my textbook, I explained to her, I said “Miss I don’t have the commerce textbook “ and she stood there shouting and saying something to my face but I kind of blanked her out. And after she left my table, I cried, yes I cried. I’m not used to teachers telling me off like that, and this guy, David Chin, he said like “Don’t listen to her, she’s stupid” and I just kept quiet, because I didn’t want anyone to know I was crying, and this girl she gave me a tissue. Ha-ha sorry I don’t really know her name… whoops. So yeaa and the uniform! GAH, I seriously thought PPS has the worst uniform, BUT NOOO, I have to wear a firkin dress guys!!!!! HAHA. I know funny innit? LOL. I guess this is it for now, will update soon okay?

Old Pics//Good Times//Portland Place School//

Kacits-Me-Kaka Aufa

My Orangey Jessie <3 Me BF!

It Had Always Been The 3 Of Us <3> Me [Jessie Drew Me That In Maths ;) Still Have It Babes] My Little Pony :)! Kaka Aufa-KaZagi-KaHudi-Me Kaka Aufa-Kacit-Me-KaHudi-KaZagi

Steffan Crystal-Azim Ghani ;)-Jessie Rowan.
I Love You All. I Miss You :)

Last But Not Least, My BFF. Forever <3 size="4">Love You Julia, I Know We've Only Been Bff For Quite A Short Period Of Time, But Look How Close We've Gotten xxx I Miss You xxx
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Love You ;)